Dear Diary,

Early Saturday morning,
I woke up, got ready and made my way to Eunos.
Met Mihah and bus-ed down to East Coast.

Had BK for breakfast and then proceeded to renting a bike.
Woohoo we cycled to like almost the other side of east coast
I never knew there was a golf course or some sort of Safra resort there.

Took a break and talked and stuff.
Cycled back and bought water.
It was like the best drink I ever had.
It was so damn cold that after its in my stomach, I could still feel the coldness in my throat.

Sunday nothing much really happened.
Only that I was so goddamn tired.
I only had like 3 hrs or so of sleep and had class at 9.

Didn't manage to sleep after that.
It was those points where your just too awake to sleep.
Karaoke-d with my little cousins online.
We were basically shouting the songs.
Haha it was really funny. (obviously you don't find it funny but i do!)
Especially the song.. Every breath you take by the Police (if I'm not wrong)

I wanted to watch Unexpected Access
but TV in the living room was being used
and my dad didn't want to watch it.
He said he was disgusted.
Hahaha. dammnnn annoying.

By 11 at night.. I dozed off at the sofa
Woke up at 4 and went to bed.
Yay! Mothermoiselle bought me a pillow and bolster! :D

Uggh but I was woken up by her shouting asking where was
her white scarf. DAMMMNNN annoying.
So then I decided to watch the Oscars.

I didn't like Jessica Biel's dress.
Alicia Keys looked awesome.
Uggh John Legend is cute!
Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt gorgeous (as usual)
And I liked Jennifer Aniston's dress.
And omg la Ben Stiller doesn't want to be laughed at but he is sooo contradicting with the beard and all.

When Mickey Rourke was given a "speech" by the previous winners of the Leading Actor,
Robert Pattinson was sitting behind him.
And the shot was such that Mickey covered 3/4 of the screen while the other part was
Robert.
Obviously I was not looking at Mickey. Haha.

Hugh Jackman was a great host and the musical thingy performance
was cool.
Slumdog Millionaire won effin a lot of awards.
Dev looked cute but man I didn't like Freida's dress.
Okay enough bout Oscars.

Buhbye.

Dear Diary,

Man I feel so guilty.
I know what I did was wrong.
But it was something I knew I wont get carried away with.
Like to me its just that.

But I'm sorry I disappointed you.
I'll try my best to not do it again.
Once again,
I'm sorry.

Dear Diary,

I had a weirdly interesting dream just now.
Okay it might sound cheesy, not interesting and what not.
But but okay i kinda dunno how i felt after the dream.

Okay here it goes...
Nick Lachey was like my boyfriend or something
okay i know its weird.
But he is him plus a little of edward cullen la
hahahahhahahahahaha. ( okay you might be wondering why i laugh but its.. like okay nvm)

Then it was in the morning at home and
somehow my "friends" were there also.
( friends were not exactly them. they were like i know its my friends but its not exactly my real life friends)

Then Nick said this to me " you look beautiful "
or something like that but for sure it was a compliment.
When in real fact.. I was looking very busuk
( not as in smelly but if you get me you will get me. I looked busuk. hahah some of you might be very confused now)

Then he liked pulled me then hugged me.
Then my mouth was like beside his ear.
And I said something in my heart.
Something like :
" Ya la you just want to show off to my friends that your a good boyfriend and all"
But I said it in my heart.
But somehow he could hear me. ( see this is why I think its like edward cullen-ish)
Then I looked at him and he like smiled and said "yeah".
As if he understood me. Like as if I had this power which connected me with him.
Like an unspoken thing. Like twins!

And I thought it was dammnnn cool.
But weird and freaky too.

Okay I totally have no idea why I just told this to the whole world.
Never mind for future references.

But I thought that it was weird for the fact that of all the guys in the world..
it was Nick Lachey. I don't even have a major crush on him or anything.
But I know that he is kind of sweet..
when watching the MTV show of him and Jessica Simpson when they were newlyweds.

Yeah okay end of story.
Im bored. I want to cycle!

Dear Diary,

Wooohoo I'm feeling better i guess.
Why you ask? Cause they bought the bloody thing :D
Hee. Okay its not really a good one. But it'll do.

Man I feel like cooking/baking. Nono. Both.
Really.
And ugghh I like this routine of mine that I have butbut
I think its unhealthy.

Like sleep damnnn late. Wake up damnnn late.
Eat. Tv. Comp. Sleep.

Whoa. Really unhealthy. Tsk.
Need to fit in other activities in there like :
Exercise,typing stuff that has been long overdue-d.

well okay I think I'll go off now.
I can pray and will definately be woken up for subuh.
Confirm plus chop man.

Dear Diary,

This was how the day went :
I woke up.. watched Jon and Kate Plus 8 :D
(their kids are annoyingly cute)
while eating two nutella spread-ed bread.

Did some stuff.. find clothes.. sweep the floor twice!
and lost track of the time. [This time I was starving]
rushed to marina to meet the girls.

Siiooll Garden and then to some place beside Arab st.

OKAY THIS IS WHEN I GET ANGRY

I went home early thinking that oh okay mom wants me to buy
the DVD recorder to tape the ad la before they don't show it anymore.
I went back early so that I could get to Best Denki before it closes.

FCUK. In the end didn't buy the bloody thing.
WHY!?! Out of budget. lLhfldhfsjldhgfsjldfhsa
Then you think what!? damn cheap ah?
If its cheap everyone buy whaaaatt.

Friggin pissed off [ being the baby that i am: cried and cursed on the way home]
WHY AM I PISSED?
Firstly, I could have spent a little more time with the girls especially when its full attendance.
Secondly, We didn't buy the bloody fcuker
Thirdly, I want that bloody fcuker
Fourthly, My family is flasj;dhflsjdhljfhsjldahfash ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!

I am so not going to layan their faces if they ask to do whatever shit to tape imah's show.

I am also pissed cause i feel bad that i was bloody rude to my mom.
Man I feel sad yet I am angry.
My emotions come out all weird man.
AND NO I AM NOT PMS-SY! I just finished!

Ugghh I am sooo officially to the max broke.
Like zilch/nada/zero/kosong

I am soo staying at home or at my grandma's
UNLESS go out without spending a single shit on anything.
even on transport. [If possible]
Okay wait come to think of it.. it's not really possible.
Grandma's is at Kembs..
and if i go anywhere without transport would be what TM?

eewww.

okay I think I'm done complaining. I think.
Other than that I had fun with my girls :)

and I am sooo not a lesbian.
I said : If it was not against religion.. i would become a lesbian/bisexual
but since it is against religion..
so I'm not :D

Yeah yeah girls are hot. But guys are hotter :P
And yes I do dream of getting married to a MAN!
[Yes go study first. Don't gatal]

Okay I'm off.
psst go watch Benjamin Button la.
Its good :D
really.
and worth it to see Brad Pitt.
everyone scream!
wohhoooo!

oh oh!
I swear I will also be pissed if Facebook become
some mat and minah place like how friendster turned out to be.
wahhh really will be pissed.
BYE!

Dear Diary,

I received my enrolment package from NP!
I feel scared.
Yet I'm happy cause NP is using some e-learning shit and
I will need to get myself a laptop!
WOOOHHOOOO!!!

I didn't realise how expensive school fees are.
I feel so bad. Like I spend a lot already and ugghh
I know I shouldn't feel this way cause its for education which is good.

My I really hope that the fares will drop significantly.

I need to find the shortest , fastest and cheapest route from Tampines to NP.
KHAIRULL!!! Go with me okay!?
All the forms to be filled and submitted by required dates.
Man so many things to do.
I have not even properly cleared my school books and all.

Okay I really have to set my priorities right from now.
[Well talk is easy. Its whether you really do it or not]

Well maybe a job is not a good idea after all.
So its okay if i rot at home and always go out broke I guess.
Hopefully rezeki will fall on me soon.
:D

Man I really miss a lot of people. Really.

Dear Diary,

"I was born under unusual circumstances"

watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
just now at the movies with my sister, cousins, aunt & uncle.

it was AWESOME!
really it was. although it was quite long.
But it was worth it. [hah i got my laling sistels to pay]
It was sad,funny, interesting
alaa just go watch la.

can Brad Pitt just get any hotter.
he is just sooo lkdjfovjsklnf hot.
wait wait he's not hot.
HE IS VERY VERY GOOD LOOKING. VERY HANDSOME.

he's face old and wrinkled also not bad sia.
why is it that life is so unfair.
why is it that handsome men like him do not exist in my life?
why? why?
why is it that gorgeous women like Angelina Jolie gets to be with gorgeous men like him
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

aljshdljasfhlusdgvolewnsdifew.
Its okay. Life's like that.

well, just catch the movie.
I feel like reading the book.

Goodnight world.

P.s blogger is annoying me.

Dear Diary,

My weekend was plain boring.
I did basically nothing.

Well I mean what you expect me to do?
So yeah.

I'm not trying to be some ustazah or something..
but some ought to know the Islamic view on valentines day
[yes yes i kinda used to celebrate it. but it was just among friends and aahh I'm not perfect okay!]

Hence, commemorating that special day known as the Valentine's Day is an innovation or bid`ah that has no religious backing. Every innovation of that kind is rejected, as far as Islam is concerned. Islam requires all Muslims to love one another all over the whole year, and reducing the whole year to a single day is totally rejected.

http://www.islamonline.net/English/In_Depth/ShariahAndHumanity/articles/2008/02/01.shtml

so yeah. well its just an enlightenment i guess.
anyways.. I'm looking forward to meeting the girls this week.
and I'm hoping that my cousins and all watch Benjamin Button this week
[ SO not watching if my sis is not paying for me. hee]

O M G. ITS OUT! ITS OUT! THE AD IS OUT!
this is M A J O R!
I am soooooo forcing my dad to buy the DVD player like maybe this Friday!
I'm excited. hee jhgljhalhfgljvjsflgj;owir/

Wasn't just now (Sunday afternoon/night) like the hottest day ever?!?!?!
I was friggin perspiring like a mad cow. I even went to the extent of taking a cold shower
at 9 pm! ( oh damn I don't care if its not good for you future whatever shit)

THAT WAS HOW HOT IT WAS. FYI, I don't even perspire a lot!

Oh I just finished reading this book : Margarettown by Gabrielle Zevin.
It was a good yet weirdly interesting book.
But it was just weird. Or maybe I'm just dumb. ( i wont go for the latter)

hee. okay so its Monday morning. and I'm getting tired.
so.. adios.

P.s the kids were awfully noisy and annoying just now.

Dear Diary,

First of all, my teeth hurt like mnflasjdhfjshdfk!!fljslhfsjdhfjhdhfhj
Get the picture?

Second of all, have i mentioned that I'm lfjhgsjhrugurgsofgjfjhhhhhh broke?
Hee. Like this is no joke. Please someone hire me!
Actually i don't mind not working and rotting at home
just that all the shops are calling me
and all the 'banks' [ie mother,father]
are rejecting me as a customer.
HAHAHAHAHHA

Thirdly AMERICAN IDOL
like HOW CAN THEY NOT PUT JAMAR IN THE TOP 36!?!?!!?!?
Did you hear him sing hey there Delilah? MY GOD that was awesome
better than the original version which was boring.

Okay here are my favourite so far :
Alex Wagner- Trugman
Anoop Desai
Danny Gokey
Kai Kalama
Matt Giraud [he looks like Justin.T right?! and his voice is awesome so far]
Michael Sarver
Natheniel Marshall
[I know what you're thinking like wth widad but his voice is nice really(if I'm not wrong ah) if you listen properly]
Nick Mitchell/Norman Gentle [hahahha he is annoying but seems interesting]
Scott Macintyre

It seems like they are all guys. but the girls they have not like captured my attention.
Except for TATIANA.
O M G she is the most annoying person ever.
Annoying laughter, everything cry, and her voice is not like WOW you know?

Yeah but all these ppl are like you have to see how they progress.
Some stand out later on.
Some change for the worst.
So yeah I'll definately keep track on Idol.

Coldplay is coming!!! Okay I'm not a huge die hard fan.. but i want to go!
:[ But i have no money.
uwaaaaaaaaaaa.
swear to god i hate this broke feeling.
really lflkdlfhlskdhfkdslkaf;hif2930mflkdjflz

Okay I'm off.

Dear Diary,

I think I'm going to bed sad
reasons are :

1st: I have been craving for double cheeseburger
but only after midnight. and i always don't get to satisfy my cravings :[

2nd : I'm effin broke. Like serious shit.

3rd: Fiqa has finished reading new moon and i haven even started :[
uwaaaaaaa.

4th:i just remembered about the shades on Sunday. stupid man. if your not selling it..
why put it there!!?!??!!?!?!? bladi hell betul.

5th: i just got my _you___ know___ what_ and my legs are cramping like nfashgkhsfhgsjfhgljfgl. my back hurts too!

6th: going shopping with Farah tomorrow means that i wont be buying anything. : [

7th: I'm out of things to hate and complain about.

Happy that I'm broke [ in a way] so i have no ways that i can waste money on.
**sidetrack : i have been keeping note on what i spend even on the smallest things
and i just realise i waste lots of money and this month alone its like only the 10th day
i have spent over $50. doesn't seem a lot but if you think bout it.. it is.
I have red nails.
I heard pastamania is halal :D
I'm going 'window' shopping tomorrow.

OH!
8th thing to be unhappy about: i miss my friends dearly.
9th: i have no valentines date.
hahhaa actually i don't bother cause i don't really celebrate it
and i have never had a valentines date.
i know i sound pathetic but do i look like i give a damn?
nooooooooooooooooo.

10th : ez-link cards are adult fair again! dang it.
11th: i still have not crossed out many things on my list.

okay i shall stop complaining. this is life. and it sucks. [not really actually]

i just realised i only go online in the whee hours of the morning.
reason is i too goddamn lazy to switch on the computer.
and I'm too busy watching Ellen then goong then my sassy girl...
hahahahaa. I'm such a bum.

i need to exercise.
i need to do my laps in the pool.
but first i need a swimming costume.
:}
[hahaha i just realised that smiley kinda looks like me cause i have a nose that can cut thru a medium rare steak or something]
and I DEARLY NEED A WATCH.
and a boyfriend.
NOT! [ on the last part not the watch part.]

woah I'm like on a roll here writing nongsense.
I need a haircut. thin my hair a little so i can shampoo with ease.

dahdah no more i needs. everything you need. you tell me what you don't need!?
you are so fortunate you know! and yet what you have your not satisfied.
whattt! i really need a haircut! and a watch! oh and shoes!

hahahhahaha
im like talking to myself.

okay goodnight/morning/afternoon.
pssstt! i miss you! :}

Dear Diary,

OKAY THIS WILL KEEP YOU ENTERTAINED I HOPE!
DAMNNNN FUNNYY! GAY GILER.